Thursday, December 18, 2014

我回來啦 :)

你好,久違的部落格
我最近真的有點不好
因爲我有點情緒失控
莫名的失落感襲擊而來
傷心,胡思亂想,emo
所有的負面情緒一下子的湧上心頭
我招架不住  所以我哭了
我控制不了我自己  就連情緒這點小事我也做不好
我是怎麽啦?是因爲知道你被錄取的消息嗎?
我明明很爲你高興  希望你能到中國發展  因爲這真的是個很好的機會
可是心卻開始傷心啦 悲哀啦 思緒也亂啦
我害怕  我不安  我沒安全感 
越説服自己就覺得好不安  連我自己也覺得我好可怕  爲什麽那麽的不老實呢?
我并不想因爲我的私心害你沒了一個美好的前途
我還能說什麽呢?
我知道如果我開口留你 你一定會留在我身邊的
我不要  我不要那麽的自私 我不能這麽做
所以我衹能説服我自己  不停的説服
好讓我自己好過
即使最近每晚都“亮晶晶”
我沒辦法不“亮晶晶”,一想到你我就亮晶晶了
我真的很沒有用  整天都哭
也讓你心煩
對不起寶貝
好希望我自己快點度過這個過渡期
希望我快點好起來 不要再有負面情緒 + 思想了。。。。。




Tuesday, July 30, 2013

Wordssss



Okay,back to my current life.
Time flies,my long sem has come to the end,it represents my final is near the corner
i really don't feel like did i go to class before.After this coming up saturday,i'll pack some of my stuff and da bao them back Batu Gajah.Leave kampar and balik kampung prepare for my final exam.I knw when i start to get lazy someone will start nagging at me non-stop - is my gonggong.so he is my motivation to study!Haha.He love me i knw,but when things come to education he will be fierce enough like a lion.Therefore, i think i've make a good decision.
Anyway,at the end of the sem, i only realized that one of my friends are really fake enough.I really do not like her!Some more i don't feel like bother her,don't feel like talk to her,don't feel like smile to her.I feel so unconvincing when i were smile to her,it make me feel like i'm fake enough like she do! 
oh gosh!!!Feel so lucky need no to face her bloody face anymore after this semester.



W-E-E-K-E-N-D

A great weekend with beloved family.
Saturday my popo's big day.Wish her 福如东海  寿比南山
HAHA
So saturday night we dinner at San Lai Hou Fuk Restaurant, some of my relatives come back,but some of 'em can't make it coz of sickness. I started to prepared at 3 smtg...my gugu help me to set the lovely curl for me.i like the curl very much but i knw i can't make it as permanent.



My Popo :D
 i used to make her angry,those harsh words ran out from my mouth when i'm in mad.
I felt so sorry to her,she loved me most,but i hurt her the most. *feel like slapping myself thousand times.
i knw we loved each other very much no matter what happened.wo shi zui ai ni de popo *kiss kiss*




Selca when going to the restaurant.




Both of 'em are my beloved ppls :)







Yingying and yanyan-the mischievous girls.Haha












Aunt and the cousins 




Cousin R- the girl who growth together with me,even though we aren't same age.hehe
we used to sharing every lil things. haha




omG...popo's cake had spoiled.





 Is time to cut the cake.hehe.
very yan oii my popo n gonggong.haha



 Hello,everybody,let's take a big group photo.hehe








 Cousin R isn't in the photo,coz ppl went to toilet so she missed it.hahaha












 OMG...my hair become like this...red colour was fade away...sobs sobs
credit to cousin R. 
i like this pic.coz it makes my hair looks healthy.haha. *自欺欺人




Sunday dinner done my gu jeong and my gugu.
Jeng!!!
i like the dumplings so much seriously.hahaha




Pickle soup is chiu jeng.credits to gu jeong.hehe




















Sunday, July 21, 2013

【三个故事看懂了再结婚吧!】

【故事一】
女人出门旅游去了,留下了男人一个人在家。女人不在家,男人喝着啤酒,不停地换着电视频道。这时,女孩的电话打来了,她说:“我闲着没事,到你家坐坐吧!”男人说:“这……不行,我正要出去。”女孩其实已经在男人的楼下了。女孩是男人的下属,女孩很多次对他表示了好感,男人都巧妙地拒绝了。

女孩手里提着很多东西,还有一瓶红酒,站在了男人的家门口。男人说:“那我下厨吧!”女孩说:“不用。”便在厨房里忙碌起来。

在另一间房子里,他开始打电话约熟悉的朋友来家里吃饭,可是朋友们都不在。过一会,女孩已经在喊他了,他到厨房猛地愣了,女孩端给他的是一盘热腾腾的饺子,他最爱吃饺子了,可是,平时他和女人都太忙,没有时间包饺子,两盘饺子、几碟小菜、一瓶红酒,女孩的脸上柔柔的笑,搅动了他的心。

说不清为什么,他在女孩不注意的时候,关掉了手机,拉上了阳台的窗帘,他能听到自己心跳的声音。一瓶红酒喝完了,女孩说头晕,就软绵绵地倒在了男人怀里。男人承认女孩是美丽的,他紧紧地把她抱在怀里,也就在那一刻,他才感觉到女孩的身体是那样的弱小。他的心猛地一颤。女孩在他的床上睡去了,他轻轻地带上了门。

这时,客厅的电话响了,是女人和孩子打来的。男人仍然喝着啤酒,不停地换着频道,他分明听到了女孩轻微的呼吸,但是,他努力地让自己的心冷静、再冷静。

女孩醒来的时候已经是第二天早上,男人一夜未眠,男人为女孩准备了早餐。吃饭的时候,女孩问:“你不喜欢我吗?”男人说:“喜欢。”“那你不寂寞吗?”女孩追问。“有点!”“可是……怕我纠缠你?”女孩扁着嘴失望地问道。

男人认真地说:“生活是一种责任,就像这碗稀饭和煎蛋,尽管老吃觉得没有什么味道,可是你每天还得做、还得吃,有时甚至觉得它难吃,可是不吃心里空荡荡的。”女孩沉默了。

送走了女孩,男人觉得从未有过的轻松。爱是一种诚信,是需要付出代价的,如果不爱,或无法承受,那么就别轻易地将自己的心打开。诱惑和寂寞,本就不是出轨的理由。

【故事二】
男孩结婚后对自己的妻子比结婚前更好。一次聚会,朋友笑他:怎么结婚了还那么痴缠。

他讪讪地笑着说道:“结婚前,很多男生都想追她,有很多男生会对她好,我只有对她更好才能追到她;结婚后,对她好的男生越来越少,我只有对她更好,才能不让她失落。我所做的一切就是想让她幸福。”说完,所有在场的朋友都沉默了,没有嘲笑,只有敬佩。

【故事三】
丈夫在床边护理即将临盆的妻子。妻子问丈夫:“你希望是男孩还是女孩?”丈夫:“如果是男孩,我们父子俩保护妳;如果是女孩,我保护你们母女俩。”

【婚姻是爱情的坟墓,其实不然。爱情不是荣华富贵,而是相濡以沫,结婚是一件幸福的事,前提是嫁给了会把你当宝的人。】


After i had read this.i feel so meaningful,so im gonna share this article with you guys.hees.

Desire is very scary!!!

OMG!!!



I wish to have ONE of this.
save money save money start from now!!!


Flora by GUCCI


Famine 30 Fight for Hunger

The first day of famine 30 DIY camp in kampar,organised by our dailou.I'm late for almost 2 hours,why i'm late is because....(hehehe...).After i settled down all my stuff and changed my t-shirt tried to get a chance to do something.hmm...i think "da zhap" is not that much things to do.Maybe because i late so someone already took my place to do for my job.Nvm la..haha.



Campers are trying to know each other.lian luo gan qing.haha




Awww...tengok!!!Siapa ni.our neenee...hees..




concentrated listened to 'em.haha


Camwhore again!!!!!We have to take more pictures to commemorate our last sem.
We have take more and more picture because we only young once.
If the time would return back,i think i still will choose to bleach my hair,no matter how suffer,how struggling it is coz we only young ONCE!!!





talking non-stop...



When the camera man near by us,straight posing V,but others seems duno huh?
Sensitive to camera?Hahahaha



 Because of the program or game?hmm..whatever lar...we have to make ourselves to fit with the character we had choose.Mine character is beggar,i knw i dun even look a like beggar with my costume.haha.It's a fun time when we are making up ourselves to fit up with the character. Laughter & screaming all in the small dressing room.







 We have to act like a beggar,when the campers ask us question we only can answer yes or no.
shake till my head almost drop.haha















 












All of us are doing nothing there.(MC talking infront.all of us seems tired)



Finally,the night has come.after taking the group photo is the time to rest!!!
Can't control myself to sing childhood song..
(the time has come,to say goodbye...lalalala~~~forgt dy..hahaha)
yesh!!!this is the bed time song i like the most!!! :D


All the fighters who fight for hunger!Salute.




This is our first day camp,next for the second day we are off to K.L to countdown for the famine 30.

What a meaningful camp,30 hours not to eat any food just water/soya.To let us experienced how those pitiful children in Africa,Vietnam, Cambodia and others country.
Can not buy branded bag,clothes,accessories,watch all those luxury stuff aren't that sad/feel pity by our own.
When there's nothing to eat,when our stomach feel empty, the feeling is very worst.After back from the camp i feel like treasure all the nature sources in my life.
I know i always complaint bout this and that,luxury stuff are not enough,can't everyday hangout or those blalala..but i know that i'm very blessed and i'm very thankful for what my gonggong,popo,daddy,mummy who gave me.They loved me enough and sayang me the most.
Seriously, i feel very blessed.



Tuesday, July 16, 2013

Orientation Night 2013/14

Last friday night,went to O'Night which means orientation night with ma group of friends *Wee~~~
In fact that's not my o'night,however this is the last semester of my diploma life,so we decided to get the ticket and attend since i didn't go to o'night before.Haha.
So, me and my friend went to my lao ban niang shop for set hair/blow hair all those stuff.
After finished blow my hair and waiting my friends to set their hair.We rushed back to my friends hostel (our temporary dressing room,and very sorry to make her room in a mess). Help my friends make up this and that,me keep on sweating.But after 1 hour smtg i've done. *Pheww~~~

Before we off to auditorium hall,still take pic non stop.




Our Outfit of The Day *Heart*






PinPin



Ennee



May May



Before we enter into auditorium hall
Camwhore non-stop.(coz we r girlsss.hees..) we shouldn't so early arrived there,ppl aren't that punctual actually.Should slow slow make-up and draw a perfect face only went out.hmm...














 My face expression is like " dun come and kacau me".Hahaha
omG..who's hand ? o.O







 Accidentally saw him. 
Jia Luo. (a pretty funny man)










While inside the auditorium hall,even the light isn't bright enough still can take pic.
GIRLS!!!!!








 Chok?!?!?!








Kiss kiss lamlam.hehe




hello from me n ym xiu jie.hehehe




Yay yay!!! five of us finally :D








innocent face?haha
Gross...my eye bag & dark circle :( 






We sneak out while the show is still on-going.It's too cold to stay inside the auditorium hall.
and the show isn't that nice.keep singing dancing all those thing.











 Our princess lamlam








Mischievous lam.hehe





After 15mins we walked back inside and continue sitting there enjoy 2013/14 freshmen singing,dancing and catwalk.Come to the last had announced who is the 2013/14 Miss Tarc and Mr Tarc.Not much of their photos because i keep camwhoring with besties and talk .forgt to capture the main character of the night.Hees..



Kay,even i don't know them but i really enjoyed the night with my besties taking pictures all the night.


I'm going to kiss u enough tonight! Haha




with the Gentleman MingKai.
Such a freakin funny man!



 Ym and boon see 















 Me and my bracelet.



sor zai yap.(Pin's bf)
Nice man,helpful *sometime*,kind,friendly.
haha



Look!!who's self-lovin behind me.hahaha










Pin's monster face. :P

















































After the o'night come to the end,everybody are on the way to their next round or balik rumah.
My next round is went to mamak drink tea and have my only meal of that day. *Sigh